reading their stories sometimes makes me happy, makes me laugh, makes me think, and rarely makes me cry.
i've read a couple of entries from blogs containing sad thoughts and too many unhappy endings. and i never felt so sad about it. but this time it did. i dunno what's in it specifically but i cried. and i couldn't stop myself. it didn't last too long, tho. nevertheless, i feel like im feeling the same way pong did. yes, it was pong's entry on our blog that made me cry.
and badz laughed at me when he saw me crying. of course, he laughed after finding nothing so touchy and feely on that entry. and bon said something like mababaw ang luha mo.
oo, mababaw nga. and i'm not afraid that others would see me crying. since i don't often express what i feel inside, i always cry it out. it's my way of releasing any suppressed emotions that i may have. i may be telling my friends what my problems or concerns are, but it's just not everything. and i open up to friends more than i ever do to my immediate family. you may not be able to fully imagine how hard it feels.. coz you're not like me. it's really hard.
i'm learning.. but for now, at 21 i am still the same kid whose true feelings are reflected in the amount of tears she pours out. and it takes a bold eye to fully understand.
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